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I woke up from another nightmare,
Shaking with a sheen of ice cold sweat across my forehead...
I sat up, wondering if it had been real...
Wondering if someone had actually died...
Wondering if life was worth all the pain its giving me...
...i was your angel in the night sky amoung the stars that shine the moon so bright
you broke my heart to be with the one you call true love
you threw me like yesterdays trash you kicked me like a soccer ball in foul play
you said you loved me you said you wouldnt break this heart
i was the girl that played your deadly games that fell for your dirty lies
...I feel the blood
Run down my wrist.
It's warm embrace
From a dagger's kiss.
The pain explodes
From it's sharp bite.
But maybe I
Will sleep tonight.
My life's blood pours
Onto the floor.
It's strange what happens
Behind closed doors.
I look down
At my arms, and smile.
Perhaps this will help me
Feel alive for awhile.
People tell me
The answer isn't pain.
But if it keeps me
The least but sane
Then why should I stop
This forbidden affair?
Why should I quit
When nobody cares?
Still, you frown
When I go for the knife
But isn't it better
Than taking my life?...
Is this how it ends
A slow circling of the drain
My life-blood soaking the ground
Was this all I was worth to you
A toy to be used
A toy to be thrown away
I still remember the happy days
We laughed and sang
Cried and wept
Through both good and bad
You were always there
But now you changed
Whether it was the world around you
Or maybe even me
All I know is that you left me
Alone
Alone to face the pain
The pain of losing you
The pain of losing a part of myself
Was this all I was worth
They tell me your gone
That you'll never come back
That you left to a better place
That you'll be happy there
But how can I feel when you left
I loved you with my heart
And my soul
And so I have to ask
Why did you leave
Why did you have to die
i'm going to stop looking for a bf he can come and fine me now. my search has come to the end i have finished so if i'm wanted he will find me soon
Je frémis, je me retrouve à genou sous la pluie
La peur me vient alors, me portant à la gorge
Je vois le monde s'affaiblir, qui vie ici n'essaye pas
D'améliorer ce taudis,
Nous ne sommes que l'oublie d'une histoire sans histoire
L'espoir de remplacer les cris de ces âmes perdues
N'est finalement que mal vécu
Ne sommes nous que des pions
Qui en une fraction de seconde
Sous la pression veut crier sa douleur
Mais a bien trop peur de se dévoiler
Parfois j'ai envie de tout arrêter, inondée de chagrin
La peine me vient encore,
Je vois le monde se démolir, qui vie ici n'essaye pas
D'améliorer ce taudis,
Nous ne sommes que l'oublie d'une histoire sans histoire
L'espoir de remplacer les cris de ces âmes perdues
N'est finalement que mal vécu
Ne sommes nous que des pions
Qui en une fraction de seconde
Sous la pression veut crier sa douleur
Mais a bien trop peur de se dévoiler
Ne sommes nous que des pions
Qui en une fraction de seconde
Sous la pression veut crier sa douleur
Mais a bien trop peur de se dévoiler
Je frémis, je me retrouve à genou sous la pluie
La peur me vient alors, me portant à la gorge
Je vois le monde s'affaiblir.
Ne sommes nous que des pions
Qui en une fraction de seconde
Sous la pression veut crier sa douleur
Mais a bien trop peur de se dévoiler
Ne sommes nous que des pions
Qui sous la pression veut crier sa douleur
Tu sais que le soleil est à porté de ta main
Et que demain tu deviendras sa perfection,
Une action, un pas en avant, une affection,
Qui met des couleurs à ta vie,
...There's so many things that I could say
But I'm sure it would come out all wrong
You've got something that I can't explain
Still I try and try and let you know
The first summer we spent, one will never forget
Looking for any kind of reason to escape all the mess
That we thought was what made us
Ain't it funny now, we can see
We're who we're meant to be
You still have all of my
You still have all of my
You still have all of my heart
(Ohhhh)
There's too many times I have to say
I could have been better and stronger for you and me
You always make me feel okay
Those late summers we spend stay up talking all night
I'd ask, "You think we'd ever make it?"
You say, "I'm sure, if it's right."
Ain't it funny to think just how stupid I used to be
Hope you always believe
You still have all of my
You still have all of my
You still have all of my heart
Let them talk and talk and talk
Let them say what they want
We will laugh at the thought; they don't know what we got
Every year that goes by, a year older we are
You'll still be beautiful then, bless your beautiful heart
We'll talk and talk and talk
How crazy is it
Someone could waste their whole life helplessly
Just patiently waiting for a love like you and me
(For a love)
You still have all of my
You still have all of my
You still have all of my heart
Losing you was one of my greatest fears but i never knew that i had
to face it so soon,I remembered the day you were born i held you in my
arms an you held onto my thumb finger with your soft tiny hands.
The way you smiled an giggle when we used to play together are memories ill
...Your hand in mine completes me
your lips on mine so sweetly
forever yours my heart beats
together i humbly entreet
for we have seen the sun rise
...When i was a baby you tried to throw me away you did
everything to get rid of me from the begining
if you didnt want me from the start then why did you
put the thought in your mind
...
Deep into the forest deep under the hollow
tree,go under and you'll find the gates to where you
want to be.
Take a left at the golden path and you'll pass the golden star
...everyday i wake up to a sickened and lost world that i try soo hard to
destroy everytime i fight soo hard to get away from it all but it holds me down
now its my chance to turn the tables to the path i want it
and nothing is going to hold me down anymore i dont care
if you fall on your knees and beg for mercy cause i wont spear it
...Currently working on a painting of AMERICAN ELM. My art teacher wants me to capture New York's central park front gate with American Elm above. I want to try to work in painting some tourists in there. I'm a beginner and I'm pretty sure my first painting on a actual canvas won't be good. But, it's worth a shot. I'm actually really excited about it as well, I've been wanting to paint on my own for quite awhile and now here's my chance! Today after school we're holding a meeting and I'm a bit ecstatic but . . .I'll be working with more 'skilled' artists, and them having to watch the teacher tutor me on the simplest of things like painting a leaf is overly ridiculous and I'll be embarrassed no doubt. So I've watched I don't know how many videos on youtube about how to paint a tree! A tree!. . . Anywho, hopefully all goes well, I guess I'll update on my progress.
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